Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Idolatry



I have been reevaluating my thoughts lately. I’ve been trying to figure out what I think about the most. Where does my mind wander in my down moments? Where does my mind wander even in my busy moments? Are those thoughts mostly positive or negative? Do I think about one thing more than anything else? Are those thoughts God centered or self-centered?

My answers to those questions vary depending on my mood or what stressors are in my life. My thoughts are like the ocean… ebbing and flowing. But, one thing is for sure… my thoughts are mostly self-centered. It’s a habit, really… one that I need to break.

I place higher value on fleeting thoughts and emotions than I do on the never changing, always present God. It's safe to say that 
whatever we spend most of our time thinking about becomes our idol. Idolatry is anything that you place higher priority in your life than God.

Do we think about money and our finances more than we think about God? Then, money is our idol. Do we think about our problems more than we think about God? Then, our problems are our idols. Do we think about our children more than God? Then, our children are our idols. Do we think about our relationships (succeeding or failing) more than God? Then, our relationships are our idols. Do we think about our religion and the rules and traditions we must follow? Then, our religion is our idol.

I suppose, like me, your idols change. What we think about (or, in my case, obsess about) is different from day-to-day, season-to-season. Therefore, we are inconsistent in what we project on the world. If we are idolizing positive feelings at that moment in time then we project happiness. If we are idolizing negative feelings at that moment in time then we project sadness.

What if we idolized the thought of God? Then, we would project His love, peace, grace, mercy, and kindness on the world. Just sayin'. 

Lately my thoughts have centered on my child. His struggles with ADHD and Anxiety consume my thoughts.  How can I help him? What can I do for him? Am I doing too much or not enough? Is he having a good day? Am I too hard or too soft on him? Am I present enough in his life? Is it ALL my fault that he even has these diagnosis?

Yep… it hit me pretty hard when I realized that I have made my child’s struggles my idols because I spend more time thinking about them than I do about God. 

Now that I know where I am investing my thoughts, I am going to re-invest my thoughts in praying and talking to God. My incessant stressing and worrying is not changing things. But, I know my incessant praying will.

I know that… I just forget.

I am turning God back into my idol. I will put no other gods before Him… not even my child’s struggles. (Ouch… that was hard to admit!)


What god or idol have you put before our Father in Heaven? 

"You shall have no other gods before me." ~ Exodus 20:3