Friday, December 12, 2014

Catastrophizing My Future World

Do you ever ponder about future events and get yourself all worked up over the things that could go wrong… perhaps even catastrophize all of those possible imaginary scenarios? You too?! Ah man, I am so glad I am not the only one. I mean, I am so sorry you have to deal with an over active imagination that runs wild, but I do find comfort in knowing I am not the only catastrophist in the world. Welcome…

I can totally surrender the past; as well as, the here and now. Where I get tripped up is that all too broad and unpredictable future. The anticipation of future events… whoosh… that’s my kryptonite.  By the Grace of God… I have overcome anxiety in my life, but every once in a while, that nagging anxiety likes to rear its all too familiar face. And… every once in a while, I say hello and embrace my old companion. In doing so, I allow myself to indulge in the lies of anxiety which inevitably leads to me catastrophizing my future world.

In order to stop this old companion in his tracks, I’ve had to become familiar with the sounds of anxiety coming. Sometimes it sounds like a tip toeing toddler. Other times it sounds like a roaring train. But it ALWAYS sounds lonely… so very lonely.

You see, when anxiety arrives to catastrophize my future plans it is because I imagine myself all alone taking on my future world. Little ol’ me verses the great big world of my future. I forget Whose hand I hold. I forget Who has gone before me to prepare the way. I forget to include God in the midst of my future plans.

So, when I hear anxiety coming my way, whether he tip toes or roars, I stop him by mediating on the vision of God being in that future place already… He meets me there in the future and says “I’ve got this, girl! We’ve got this together!”.

I’d love to be able to declare that I am a recovering catastrophist, but the truth is that I might always fight this fight. But I fight it with God by my side… here and now and in the wonderfully unpredictable future.

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.